birthday

i have this problem about other people's birthdays.

u see ha, sometimes i do remember them, like 2 or 3 days before. then, i forgot. then, dunno whether i need to wish them 'belated' birthday or not. sometimes i feel sooo malas lah nak wish. then i tak wish la. then other times i feel not quite so malas, but then i think again ha, 

"it's not fair for others i didn't wish."

this is so convoluted. at least to me. we rate friends, right? we do. 

best friends, old friends, best friends forever, just friends, long-time-no-see friends, i-forgot-already-the-names friends, i-wish-i-never-knew-them friends, childhood friends, accidental friends, online friends, facebook, twitter, myspace friends, basketball friends, coursemate friends, family friends.

one person can be a be given more than one title there :)

and i think, only certain really need my birthday wish. and sadly, with that  few number of people, also i cannot manage to remember their birth dates and wish properly oh. i feel bad, really. for those 'close' friends. do i feel bad for those 'not-so-close' friends? sometimes. ha. liar. no lah. i don't feel bad.

and sometimes, i think the way of u wishing the birthday also matters. like, for very very close friends, either i have to call, or wish in person with gifts. no facebook wish is necessary. others, it goes in this order :

text messages, facebook messages / wall post. ha, that's all.

really, is birthday wishes important to you? not to me. hmm. let me imagine. if zhafran forgets to wish my birthday... i won't be mad? no i won't. is that normal? you know, when we see all those dramas, where people got so busy with work, or problems or whatever, they forget their birthdays. then, here comes the surprise party! and konon buat muka terkejut gila la "oh my god, i totally forgot my birthday is today!"

come on lah. nobody ever forgets their own birthday. i sometimes wish i'd forget my birthday. but it's quite impossible because my parents' birthdays are also in September. and we write dates everyday, right? with the files, the investigations requested in the ward, the timetables, the lectures. how can i miss every single day? ok i may miss the dates at the weekends, but still, if it's september already, automatically, i'll start thinking 

"oh my birthday's coming. so as my parents'."

hmm. i can't remember theirs and then forget mine right? they're in the same month. and mine is between them."