Saturday 17 November 2012

suju

oho! two posts in a day. just minutes apart. takpe. sebab sekarang, i want to mengumpat budak year 3. harharhar.

budak-budak year 3 ni, kurang manners la. i don't like. menyombong tak tentu hala.

ok la unfair kalau cakap semua year 3 macam tu. tidak. lagipun yang menyombong tu aku kenal sikit je. jangankan nila setitik, rosak susu sebelanga. don't let a buffalo smeared with mud smear all the other buffaloes with mud. 

tapi yang nak cerita ni yang sombong la kan?

huh. pandang tak senyum pun. tau la cantik. cantik pun perangai buruk tak guna jugak. tak nak cakap or mintak tunjuk ajar seniors pun, senyum je la bila jumpa. tunjuk hormat sikit. bukan menonong jalan tayang muka cun kau tu.

kalau nak panggil or tanya seniors, pergi dekat-dekat, then cakap, 

"err kak, sorry nak tanya. teaching dengan mr praveen hari ni pukul berapa ye?"

haa kan sejuk je telinga aku dengar. then maybe aku akan jawab,

"eh aku tak tau la. sori. tanya la ketua kau."

itu kira baik la tu aku jawab. ini tidak. nak panggil aku, dari jauh di gamit-gamit je guna tangan. tau tak gamit tu apa? tau kan la. lepas tu terus tanya teaching dengan mr praveen pukul berapa. hoi, dah la tu kelas year 3 sebenarnya. kitorang yg year 5 ni nak tumpang sama je. sepatutnya year 3 la yang tau kelas tu pukul berapa. sepatutnya aku la yang tanya kelas tu pukul berapa. tapi still, aku jawab macam yang aku jawab kat atas tu. entah la mungkin aku dah jadi baik?

yang lagi satu ni jadi kat kawan aku. malam-malam budak year 3 ni datang ward. entah apa kau buat pun aku tak tau. baca case notes. fine. nak cari case write up kot. duduk kat counter. lepas tu ditolaknya kerusi. ok lagi. tapi, kerusi yang ditolak tu terkena kawan aku. kuat la jugak. ok lagi. tapi, dia tak cakap sorry pun!. ok la sebenarnya dengar benda ni macam kecik je. memang kecik pun. tapi, benda-benda kecik macam ni la yang matter sebenarnya. tak kisah la kau terlanggar siapa-siapa pun, kau mesti la cakap sorry. kalau aku terlanggar juniors pun, aku cakap sorry what. damn.

nak kata karma, aku rasa time aku junior dulu takde pulak aku kurang ajar dengan seniors. jarang bercakap-cakap pun. jumpa senyum, tunduk, sudah.

budak-budak ni. sebenarnya, kalau korang approach aku, and mintak tolong macam, how to present long case ke, how to present during ward rounds ke, boleh la aku tunjuk ajar sikit-sikit. bukan la nak kata aku hebat ke apa. tapi, i've been in your place once. i've been the third year medical student in surgery posting, who was super blur. surgery was my first posting in 3rd year. nak history taking hancur. nak present lagi la hancur. tapi aku tak tanya seniors pun. tapi entah macam mana aku boleh survive. but kalau tanya seniors pun aku rasa lagi bagus. kurang la blur2 tu.

these things take practice. masa 3rd year sangat ngeng. lama-lama, dah biasa history taking, dah biasa dengar orang present, so sendiri akan improve. kalau korang approach aku, akan akan spoon-feed korang. sebab aku tau lecturers sekarang semua taknak spoon-feed. kadang-kadang, bila kau blur yang tersangat-sangat, spoon-feeding is like a blessing. bila kau blur, tiba-tiba ada orang yang nak bagitau semua benda, and kau just senyap je. kau tanya la macam-macam, and orang tu akan bagitau. pergh heaven. tapi ni kalau nak spoon-feed benda-benda basic je la. like, doctor ni nak apa, doctor tu nak apa.

haih. penatnya. typing pun penat. terasa macam membebel betul-betul.


my lots-and-lots-of free time

so today i'm going to teluk intan. for surgery posting. not sure to feel happy or not. got no internet there. unless you go to giant's mcdonald's or oldtown white coffee or burger king.

i don't have a car. i'm not close to the ones who have.

i've finished watching how i met your mother season 7. i don't have season 8.

somebody i don't like has the big bang theory season 4, which i don't have. so i'll just be a two-faced bitch and kindly ask him to give me the big bang theory season 4. so i can watch it during my lots-and-lots-of free time in teluk intan.

i scroll down through facebook. and hate what i see. attention seekers all over  malaysia. and wondering why do i even have them in my friendlist. but i still feel like scrolling down and curse them silently, since in teluk intan i won't be able to get to facebook. oh wait i have a smart phone. dang.

i have a lot of work to do. case write up, dual-language forensic reports. better do it during my lots-and-lots-of free time in teluk intan. i haven't seen my mentor yet. the deadline was in october. shit. i don't know how to do a resume or CV. shit.

everybody is screaming about jpa now. they've run out of money. i don't have that problem, but i'll be happy if the money comes in quickly. who won't?

and oh yes. i'm getting engaged this december.

and oh yes. the professional exam is in 5-month time. how awesome since i'm like, fully prepared yo.