Benang.

Peribahasa: Bagai menegakkan benang yg basah

Meaning: Jgn menegakkan benda yg confirm lah tak betul. nak tegak-tegakkan pulak.

My issue: Benang yg kering pun, mana boleh tegak kan.

situation: emogirl on the loose.

situation: kat FB hari ni, ada org post gambar half naked dia. lelaki la. baring, tak pakai baju. nmpak smpai nipple line tu. nampak tangan angkat sebab snap gambar sendiri. 

caption: bosan-bosan. or something like that.

reaction: yikes. unless you're famous, or have hot rocking body, then i'll be interested. and, oh bosan2 tangkap gambar bogel n post kat FB ke? cheap.

situation: ada sorang camwhore ni, selalu post gambar dia seorang kat FB. 

caption: Malacca is so hot. or, dinner time with my love (some poor guy's name). and ramai orang 'like'. and dia cakap thank you dekat semua orang yg 'like'.

reaction: hey kalau malacca is so hot, tunjuk la gambar melaka. ni nak tunjuk gambar you pulak. oh you budget you hot la. oh ok. oh and dinner time with that whomever tu, awat nye takda pun gambar that guy? gambar youu je. kalau you dinner sorang-sorang ok lah jugak. oh tak ok. kalau you dinner sorang-sorang pun, tunjuk la gambar dinner you tu. (takpe sebenarnya tak payah tunjuk pun takpe. i tak suka sgt tengok gambar makanan, and i tak suka pun tengok gambar you. sebab kat FB you, dah penuh gambar you je. tak berubah pun muka. tp everytime org nk like nk ckp tq pulak.) oh one more. kenapa nak say thank you kat orang yg 'like'? so weird lah you.

situation: hari ni ada orang post: jealous tengok orang pakai white coat and gantung stethoscope kat leher. saya pun nak jugak!

reaction: alahaaii. mesti budak medic yg cakap ni. kalau tak, takde nye nak jealous. pakai lah white coat you, pastu gantung lah stethoscope you kat leher. dah tak jealous. selesai. don't thank me.

situation: ramai orang yg konon ada meltdown kat FB. or bad mood.

post: i am now emotionally unavailabe. huhu. or :P

reaction: what's "huhu" anyway? i thought "huhu" sounds like someone's laughing? you're in a bad mood, and you're laughing? are you really in a bad mood? then why the stick-out-tounge smiley face? tak talley lah.

sebenarnya, aku ni, kerja aku ni, marah-marah je. tak da kerja lain. semua nak emo. tu lah dia.

S.P.A.R.T.A.C.U.S

i suka la tengok Spartacus: Blood and Sand. hot, hunky half-naked men fighting with swords. what girl and gay man wouldn't like that stuff? Spartacus: Gods of the Arena pun best jugak.

nom nom nom nom nom nom nom

nom nom nom tu apa ye. aku selalu tengok orang kalau nak makan ke apa ke cakap nom nom nom. whatever lah. nanti-nanti i google apa bendanya nom nom tu. di atas, ialah gambar Andy Whitfield, yakni Spartacus dalam Spartacus: Blood and Sand season 1. season 2 belum keluar lagi, bersabar-sabar ye. weeiii,

hot tak mamat  ni? mestilah hot ok.

dalam episode 1 and 2 rambut dia panjang. tapi i cari-cari gambar dia, yg ada gambar rambut panjang tu, mesti dgn bini dia dalam Spartacus tu. benci lah i. so i tak letak la gambar rambut panjang tu kat sini. ala tak hensem pun rambut panjang. i tak suka la lelaki rambut panjang. rimas.

tapi, andy whitfield ni dah mati. i mean, really dead, in real life. he battled non-Hodgkin's lymphoma. died at age 39. so season 2 would be featuring a new Spartacus. although i can't imagine what Spartacus would be like without andy whitfield. sob sob.

grr

dangg. gambar ni tak boleh tak letak lah. 'get the body of a Roman gladiator'. nice line. i suka gambar ni sebab, dalam Spartacus tu, sangaaaaaat lah sikit budak ni nak senyum tau tak. serious aje. so ni ada senyum sikit i suka la. more like a smirk. eh i tengok senyuman dia je tau. you tengok apa? ayookk.

ok lah i sedih la tengok Andy Whitfield lama-lama. walaupun i baruuuu je minat dia lepas tu baru dia mati. mari tengok Spartacus: Gods of the Arena. ini ialah prequel untuk cerita Blood and Sand season 1. disebabkan Andy Whitfield was diagnosed with cancer, he deferred (ye ke?) from continuing to act in season 2, because he needed to undergo treatment. so, because of too long of waiting, they did Gods of the Arena. only have 6 episodes. again, i couldn't imagine any hero but andy. in Gods of the Arena, the hero is Gannicus, played by Dustin Clare.

aww

well guess what? he IS cute! wait, wait. eat this:

i'll eat. nom nom nom

he is SUPER CUTE! even cuter in real life. in Gods of the Arena, this fella SMILES a lot. and damn, really, he's freaking charming, i tell you. but he's tiny. he's 5 ft 8" (173cm). Andy was 5 ft 10" (178cm). that's why in Blood and Sand, some new gladiator is shocked when he sees Spartacus, and says, 

"That small man is the champion of Capua?"

i was like, whaaa? he's not small, you idiot. he's BIG. but no. he's small. i wonder why they don't say anything about Gannicus' height in Gods of the Arena?

tapi kan tapi kan. Dustin Clare ni, 10 years younger than Andy Whitfield. tapi muka nampak macam sama umur je kan? mana satu, did Andy look younger, or does Dustin look older?

i'm no freak, yaw

some people like to use some words in particular. what kind of a freak am i, noticing these things? whatev. here are the words:

Mr T likes to say "basically"

...ok, for the complications of fracture, basically, we have early and late complications...

...basically, the early complications are within a few hours of...

...it is depending on the types also. basically, the types are according to what classifications...

Mr A likes to say "whereby"

...it is a common site of fracture, whereby approximately 80% of fractures that occured...

...the 2nd one is a milder form of fracture, whereby the injury is less extensive...

...there are many subtopics for this topic, whereby my other friends will be presenting...

and i keep on counting how many times they say basically and whereby. didn't really care what they were trying to say. i lost count, by the way.

it makes me think,

do i have any particular habitual words?

what do i usually say? whatever? whatev? but i won't be saying those while i'm presenting a case, or in any formal presentation, right? gila apa. cakap whatever dekat professor.

i usually say OK. ok is ok in everything. so it's ok. everybody says ok everytime. right? ok.

oh i say right a lot. but it's a common word, really. everybody says right all the time. right? right.

so i guess i AM normal. i AM??!

embrace bad mood day

after a whole yesterday of ranting, and bad-mooding, i finally recovered today. partially, i guess. i am in no mood of doing case write up, but i HAVE to. it's just, i have to. *notice the desperation tone?*

why am i in such a bad mood? penat lah. sakit badan bad mood-bad mood ni.

hari ni kena marah dgn dr dekat klinik. er. wtv. i know i've done nothing wrong.

no i don't wish you a nice day.

let's see the pictures. i'm afraid i'll tersembur semua kata-kata carut kalau i keep on typing.

if only it's that easy. if only we have woods in hukm.

now i'm feeling like a barking dog? err. woof.

sometimes, we feel bad mood is a necessity.

no lah. i have one song from NIN. the 300 soundtrack or something. i just love this cat even though he looks evil.

i don't have PMS lah today. just a simple bad mood.

perfect sunday.

hari ni, dalam bas lagi, dapat msg:

"farah, i think we have to cover the beds for tomorrow. can you divide the beds so we can cover today? tq"

er, wtf? why don't YOU? since you're already so SEMANGAT to cover bed on a fucking sunday. i was IN the bus for god's sake. can't you wait for me to at least inhale, exhale, and die before you ask me that question? why ME, anyway? i'm not the group leader lah. dah week 6 pun tak tau-tau lagi.

and people don't reply my messages now? what you guys think i'm your info center, i tell info just for fun? you don't like the message, neither do i. and this case write up thing is pain in the ass.

and today, dah semangat-semangat nak keluar, tak jadi pulakk. SHITT. i AM a planner. so you must answer my question, when i ask specifically: WHEN? if you cannot answer the exact time, give range. is it so hard? you know, it's waaay more irritating when i've already planned and the plan didn't work out, than you already said in the first place, crystal clear : I DON'T WANT TO GO OUT WITH YOU. is it so fucking hard to say? I DON'T WANT TO GO OUT WITH YOU. see? it's not hard to say. i say it all the time. don't give false hope to me!!

i'm freaking hungry. and there's no food in my room. and there's this expired soy milk in the fridge? it's been there for a month! fucking cunts, you guys are disgusting, you know that? thx. i feel so much better saying that.

what now?

pernah tak, pernah tak, rasa nak bagi warna kepada sesuatu yg tak berwarna? atau bagi jantina kepada sesuatu yg tak hidup? contoh,

hari isnin = warna kuning

hari selasa = warna biru

hari rabu = warna oren

hari khamis = warna hijau

hari jumaat = warna merah

hari sabtu dengan ahad tak tau nak bagi warna apa. ada warna purple, coklat, kelabu, hitam, putih. banyak lagi. tapi tak tau nak bagi warna apa.


dulu ada kawan bagi jantina dekat huruf. katanya,

d = lelaki

s = perempuan

K = lelaki

dan lain-lain. huruf besar dengan huruf kecil pun lain-lain jantinanya.

pernah tak, pernah tak, kalau cakap pasal apa-apa barang, terus fikir brand dia? contoh,

petrol = petronas

ubat gigi = Darlie

laptop = Acer

kipas = Panasonic

TV = Sony

pizza = Pizza Hut

burger = Ramly

shampoo = Pantene

kenapa tak cakap petrol tu Shell ke, BP ke. kenapa tak cakap ubat gigi tu Colgate ke, apa yg ada beruang kutub tu ke. kenapa tak cakap laptop tu HP ke, Toshiba ke, ASUS ke. kenapa tak cakap jenama kipas tu KHinD ke, Pensonic ke. kenapa tak cakap jenama TV tu Sanyo ke, Samsung ke. kenapa tak cakap pizza tu Domino's ke. kenapa tak cakap burger tu McD ke, KFC ke, Burger King ke. kenapa tak cakap shampoo tu Rejoice ke, Dove ke, Clear ke.

reverse f*ck

harini, bila keluar bilik, dah nak sampai wad dah, teringat pulak,

kunci tinggal. fuck.

lepas tu, raba-raba poket, eh ada pulak. reverse fuck.

harini, tertinggal nota kat library. lepas tu ada meeting. meeting lama pulak tu. takut ada orang ambil nota tu. habis meeting, cepat-cepat pergi library.

dari jauh tengok takda nota. fuck.

lepas tu, dah dekat, eh ada pulak nota tu. reverse fuck.

apa ni? what the hell is reverse fuck??

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suka tengok sports, sebab sportsmen handsome-handsome. badan sasa pulak tu. tinggi pulak tu. fit pulak tu. hebat pulak tu.

messi pendek. so tak suka. christiano ronaldo hot, tapi too gay. tak suka. alah tak suka bola pun. kenal pun yg famous-famous je. tu pun 2 orang je hahaha

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hari yg ceria ialah, hari yg tak tidur siang. bila tak tidur siang, rasa macam belajar lah kononnya. rasa macam buat lah something yg berguna. sebab kalau tidur siang, tidur 3 jam! siap mimpi-mimpi lagi. tapi, kalau mimpi pasal pergi wad, kurang sikit rasa guilty nya.

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the sentimental side

friends come and go.. who stays forever?

once a friend told me, never add a friend on facebook. wait until they add you first. wth?

quarreling because of facebook / friendster / myspace / whatever is so not worth it.

we change, when we go to another circle of friends. the previous circle is not meant to be forgotten, but the bond is not as strong. it's not forgotten, of course. it's not changed. WE changed.

a friend once told me, some people are meant to be in your heart, but not in your life. (siapa terasa?)

i crave for stability. because i fear uncertainty. (siapa terasa? sila cepat-cepat berubah)

i saw a friend's profile pic, she was with me. this time, i saw her with her 'new' friend. me no more. i know i'm not supposed to be jealous. but i am. but again, not worth quarreling about. that's why i always put me, and only myself for my profile pic. so nobody would get hurt. 

*i know nobody won't, but it's just my principle that, don't do something that you think you would get hurt if somebody does the same thing to you*

if you don't like me, don't pretend you do. if you don't like what i like, don't pretend you do, just not to break my heart. because pretending DOES break my heart. honesty is heart-breaking too, but faking is way worse. either way, i WILL get my heart broken. my loss, not yours.

i don't like to be sentimental about friendship. "i don't like" does NOT mean "i am not". so when i am, i don't like it.

i don't know how long i can bend, before i break. i don't know when i will heal if i break. i don't even know if i will be wounded if i do break. no wound, no healing needed.

if i hate you, i'd rather ignore you. because i don't care about you. but if i don't ignore you, what does that mean for me? i care about you? yuck. i don't know. and it fucking bothers me. because i know you also hate me, but you manage to ignore me and not care about me. lucky you. congrats.

hari yg memenatkan. ecey cey

wah kelas habis pukul 7! thx, mr azmi. i luv yah. sebenarnya, kalau nak diikutkan, sepatutnya, tak lah penat sangat kan, balik pukul 7 tu? ada doktor on call tak balik-balik 3 hari! ok tu exaggerate je tu. tak balik 2 hari la. so tak payah la nak penat sangat kan, kelas habis pukul 7. sampai bilik pun sempat je sembahyang asar. tapi kena rushing-rushing la kan.

daripada tak lapar, jadi lapar pulak ye. kebosanan boleh menyebabkan kelaparan? ye lah, saya rasa itu betul. saya pernah bosan-bosan tak tau apa nak buat, tiba-tiba lapar. oh.

hari ni, mr azmi ada cakap benda yg sangat mengejutkan! hahahahahahaah. masa ada la sorang budak ni tengah present, tetiba dia tanya budak ni sekolah mana. katanya, budak-budak yg duduk boarding school ni, especially girls, ada SLANG dia sendiri. ok itu sangat kelakar. dia cakap,

"i know la. because my sister was from Tun Fatimah. cakap pun nak ada slang. pastu English grammar macam haywire."

ok itu SANGAT SANGAT kelakar! *terasa i tau, mr azmi.. apa i ada slang ke?? euww. mana ada lah youu.*

ok lah. kesian kat budak yg ada slang tu. i tak nak lah kutuk dia pulak. kang terasa hati kecilnya itu.

apa ni, jerawat ni. period dah datang, jerawat patut beransur pergi. ni kenapa ada lagi? apa kau nak, jerawat??

aku nak balik hari khamis ni! i dun cayyrehh. (that means "i don't care", y'know.) dan pakai jaket baru wuuuhh. nak tengok tak? nak tengok tak? mestilah nak kann. huhu

i wish.

i ada amik picture jacket i. tapi dia tak photogenic laa. so i amik la gambar atas ni kat internet ye. tau tak caption dia ape?

women super soft brown leather bike jacket.

i don't even have a bike. but i'd loove to be a biker chic, without a bike. hahahahah

kenapa aku hyper sangat ni.

orang sombong

aww this is beyond cute, no?

ok lah, ok lah. i think i banyak sangat cakap ok. tapi takpe. sukahati i lah kan. you nak tau tak, hari ni i rasa macam jahat sikit. sikiiiiiit je. i nak kutuk orang ni. wahahahah.

you tau tak orang yg sombong? haa. i ada kenal la a few orang yg sombong. kenal gitu-gitu je la kan. sebab dia sombong, mana dia nak kawan dengan i kan. haha. i tak kesah puun. tapi, mesti lah kita suka nak kutuk orang sombong ni kan. mari-mari.

orang sombong #1

dia ni kan. dress up nak lawa-lawa. ok tu tak kesah. setiap orang ada hak masing-masing nak penampilan macam mana. i pun suka la tengok orang lawa-lawa and wangi-wangi. betul ni. tapi kan, haaaa. i tak tau lah dia ni macam mana sebenarnya kan. dia macam, cakap kuat-kuat. ok maybe dia confident kot. tapi kan, cakap kuat-kuat yg, er, nak cakap dengan sorang je, cakap la dgn sorang je. tak payah la bagi 50 orang di sekeliling you tu dengar. ok tu takpa lagi. tapi dia ni kan, macam nak speaking-speaking tau. i tak kesah pun orang nak speaking-speaking. lagi lah bagus. kita kena improve English kita, sebab English tu penting kan. kita pun belajar dalam English kan. tapi kan, macam ni tau cara dia cakap:

eh, you, you. you dah ambil dah kertas tu? sebab i dah pergi dah department tadi.

ohh. eh, i tak lah. i tak ada ambil pun. ye lah. i, i, i pergi je, tak tengok sangat pun.

you lah. you, you, you pergi ambil, nanti you bagitau i lah. ok? ok bagus la you ni.

wek. setakat nak speaking cakap i you, I pun boleh la YOU. haha. entah apa-apa. tu sebab i start cakap i you awal-awal tadi. ada perasan? haha. sebenarnya, i pun suka jugak cakap i you ni. tapi maybe dalam blog je kot. or maybe time mood gedik i dgn kawan-kawan je la kot i nak cakap i you ni. tapi bukan la dgn semua orang kan. yek.

orang sombong #2

oh budak ni. hmm. sombong tahap apa entah pun i tak tau lah. i ada dengar cerita dulu kan, kitorang kena naik van dengan pakcik van. ramai-ramai lah ni kan. takda budak lelaki. budak perempuan je semua. dulu kan, mama i ajar, jangan panggil pakcik van / bas / lori "driver". panggil dia "pilot". dulu-dulu i pun tak faham lah apabendanya mama i cakap tu. i ingat "pilot" tu bawak kapal terbang je kan. (eh dulu i nak jadi pilot tau. yg bawak kapal terbang la). mama i tak bagi kita panggil "driver" sesuka hati. takut orang tu tersinggung. ni no offense kat sape-sape. because i rasa, setiap pekerjaan tu baik, asalkan halal di sisi Tuhan. ok? oh berbalik kepada orang sombong #2. kitorang pun bergilir-gilir lah duduk depan, sebelah pakcik van tu kan. takkan semua nak duduk belakang? ewah ingat pakcik tu driver kau? ingat kau yg bayar pakcik tu nak  bawak kau ke hulu ke hilir? budak ni, tak pernahnya la nak duduk depan. entah, dia fikir habis standard dia kot. ok cerita ni aku dengar from kawan. bukan terjadi di depan mata. so not reliable ke? hmm. tapi aku percaya la.

si orang sombong #2 ni pun kan, bila aku terserempak dgn dia, tak pernahnya nak pandang aku. apatah lagi nak senyum kan. ok lah, maybe dia ni pendiam orangnya. or maybe muka aku ni mmg not worth to senyum at. tapi kan, bila aku tengok dia dengan GENG-GENG dia, amboi. suara macam pontianak. (i tak pernah dengar pun suara pontianak betul-betul. setakat dalam movie Pontianak Harum Sundal Malam je.) oh tak pendiam la tu. ui ui, so i tak satu standard dengan you ke? you tak boleh nak pandang i ke? or cakap-cakap dengan i ke? ish, ish. you tak dengar ke i cakap "i you" ni, tu maksudnya i bergaya dan kaya-raya tau maksud "i you" ni. i bukan cakap saja-saja je tau (oops sorry orang sombong #1 hahah)

i perasan kan, ramai orang yg sombong ni kan, dia sombong part yg kawan-kawan setaraf ni. dia ingat dia kaya, dia nak kawan dgn orang kaya je. non-malay i tak tau lah tahap kesombongan mereka kan. i tak rapat sangat dengan mereka. yg si melayu lah ni. and si melayu yg konon kaya ni (i tak tau betul ke tak diorg kaya kan, sebab i tak tanya lah. diorang pun tak nak cakap dgn i kan), diorang suka kawan dgn non-malays. oh tu i langsung lah tak kesah nak kawan dgn bangsa lain. kita satu malaysia. i pun anak campur. tapi, kenapa nak kawan dgn bangsa lain je, tak nak kawan dgn bangsa sendiri? apa igt bangsa sendiri tak kaya? eh, kita kawan bukan sebab kaya miskin la! maksud i kawan ni ialah, kalau i or sapa-sapa nak cakap dgn dia, dia mcm malas nak layan la. kalau kawan bangsa lain tu nak cakap dgn dia, beriya-iya dia layan. eee.

tak payah la sombong sangat. steve jobs dengan bill gates pun tak sombong. ok i tak kenal diorang so i tak tau.

not funny lah.

you know, i tak suka la orang yg cakap-cakap masa lecture. cakap-cakap ok lagi. i pun cakap-cakap jugak. tapi, orang ni cakap-cakap kuat-kuat pulak tu. lepas tu, lama pulak tu cakap-cakapnye. amboi. orang lain nak dengar lecturer cakap lah. bukan nak dengar you cakap. i bukan lah baik sangat pun konon semangat gila nak dengar lecturer cakap. ok lah i admit, i memang skema. memang i nak dengar pun lecturer cakap apa.

lepas tu kan lepas tu kan, bila dia tengah syok-syok cakap-cakap dengan kawan dia tu kan, lecturer tu pun buat lah lawak kan. lepas tu semua orang pun tergelak besar. pastu dia yg cakap-cakap ni mestilah tak tahu menahu apa bendanya yg lawak tu kan. tiba-tiba, boleh pulak berhenti cakap-cakap dengan kawan dia, lepas tu sibuk tanya orang sebelah yg tak cakap-cakap tu (aku lah tu),

"eh, eh, lecturer cakap apa eh?"

eh, eh. nak pulak kau dengar ye? bila time lawak je kau nak dengar ye? hear me out:

"if you don't listen carefully, the joke is not meant for you to laugh at."

waah. kalau lah aku boleh sembur macam tu kat muka dia.

ataupun dia tengah tersengguk-sengguk tidur. bila orang gelak, dia pun terjaga, then nak tanya pulak apa lecturer cakap. entahlah bagi aku annoying sangat lah orang macam ni.

lagi, lagi. bila dia pun dengar jugak apa yang semua orang dengar, then ada somebody buat lawak, then everybody gelak EXCEPT dia (sebab dia tak faham lawak tu), time orang tak habis gelak tuuu lah jugak dia nak tanya balik apa bendanya yg lawak sangat tu. adoi. habis lah feel / moment lawak tu nanti. geram betul la. kalau kena dekat aku, memang aku buat muka lah kat orang yg tak faham-faham lawak tu and sibuk pulak nak tanya time tu jugak. kalau orang yg baik, ha dia cerita lah balik dari awal sampai lah habis pasal lawak tu. dah tak kelakar dah.

some jokes are funny if told once only.

ha, ha lagi satu. kalau lawak tu tak habis lagi, i mean, belum sampai punch line tapi orang dah start senyum-senyum dah tu, time tuuuu jugak lah dia sibuk nak tanya apa bendanya. orang tu tak habis cakap lagi lah. dengar la dulu woi.

kamon lah wei, DENGAR SENDIRI la. ada telinga kot. ada telinga tapi tak pekak lagi kan? hmm. entah apa la yang kau dengar masa orang cakap-cakap tu. kau pun sibuk nak cakap-cakap jugak. telinga ada 2, tapi dengar la 1 benda je.

soalan bodoh.

macam mana ni? macam mana nak jadi doctor ni? malas sangat ni. malas belajar, malas cover bed, malas buat homework. mana boleh malas lah. adoi.

hari ni birthday aku!!

hari ni aku dah marah orang. oh god. ok la macam ni ceritanya.

ada sorang kawan aku ni. dia sangat pandai. so aku banyak la tanya-tanya dia soalan-soalan. walaupun soalan tu bodoh. tapi kan, aku tak tau pun soalan tu bodoh. ye lah kan, aku kan tak pandai. jadi aku tak tau la soalan tu bodoh untuk dia. hari ni, bila aku tanya,

"eh, external fixation tu kan pakai local anesthesia (LA). habis kalau dah lepas tu, patient sakit tak?"

dia pun dah start buat muka 'you-ask-this-stupid-question?-unbelievable" dan start cakap,

"imagine if i give you LA kan, and..."

"alah dia ni suka perli-perli tau. jawab je lah soalan."

haa lepas tu semua orang macam,

"whooaaaa ada orang marah"

then diorang macam nak cheer things up, diorg cakap la, 

"alah takpe, birthday girl kan. biarlah dia nak cakap apa."

tapi sebenarnya, aku tak rasa pun macam birthday aku harini. and aku tak main lepas cakap je sebab harini birthday aku. aku dah lama dah nak cakap camtu kat  budak ni. budak ni membuatkan aku malas dah nak tanya dia apa-apa lagi. buat aku nak usaha sendiri lah cari jawapan. tak payah tanya dia. sebab everytime aku tanya dia, aku rasa macam orang paling bodoh sekali di dunia.

then dia jawab,

"ok lah, jawab soalan. patient akan rasa sakit. haritu i ada tanya patient."

oh, so you ada la tanya soalan bodoh kat patient? i see..

"ok thanks for the answer."

oh and then aku rasa dia nak pujuk aku kot.

"sorry ah, birthday girl.." something something other things he said i cant remember now.

oh aku bukan mintak dipujuk pun. kalau zhafran buat aku marah pun aku tak mintak dipujuk. inikan pula entah sapa-sapa. aku rasa budak ni, jarang la orang marah dia cmtu. dia kan pandai. sapa berani marah?

sebenarnya, setiap orang itu lain-lain. kadang-kadang, ok lah jugak kalau nak jawab soalan tu perli-perli so kita akan ingat jawapan tu sampai bila-bila. tapi kalau dah everytime macam tu, hmm. memang melenting lah aku kan. takpe. think positive. aku menyuarakan untuk orang yg selalu terkena dgn budak ni. hahahahahaa. ntah-ntah aku je yg rasa camtu. dah la. lepas ni you jangan risau tau. i takkan tanya you soalan bodoh lagi. maybe i takkan tanya you apa-apa soalan pun. sampai bila-bila! 

oh so emo.

sekolah

holiday dah habis. aku pun dah habis. eh. tak. aku ada lagi. meruntun di hukm ini. 

meruntun tu apa? aku main letak je.

mari cerita pasal kenang-kenangan di sekolah dahulu yuhuu

1. Mrs Chandran

Mrs Chandran ialah cikgu English aku masa form 5. aku set 1. dia mcm ni tau. bila tiba part English, budak-budak yg nakal-nakal gitu yg akan masuk set 1 (ok aku tak nakal. aku skema.). contohnya, er, takpe lah takyah bagi contoh. so budak-budak ni English power oo (ok English aku tak power, so aku still tak tau kenapa aku masuk set 1). berbalik kepada Mrs Chandran. dia suka cakap perkataan

FANTABULOUS!

katanya, why don't you try to pick 2 words, with the almost same meaning, and mix them together.

FANTASTIC + FABULOUS = FANTABULOUS!

ok takpe lah tu. kami tak pernah pun mix-mix words tu. ada lah sekali tu. dia suruh kitorang buat essay (as usual). tapi, kali ini, berbeza ye. dia cakap, (dalam bahasa Inggeris), 

"cuba korang buat satu essay, tapi jgn habiskan essay tu. buat separuh jalan je."

tiba-tiba, kelas yg selalu membosankan itu menjadi menarik. semua orang tertunduk-tunduk, terjelir-jelir lidah (bukan aku) menulis essay yg separuh itu. sebab, tak payah habiskan sampai 6 paragraphs la kan. buat 3 paragraphs je. separuh kan. wohoo. best-best. masing-masing pun tanya-tanya la pasal masing-masing punya essay kan. best-best.

keesokan harinya, Mrs Chandran with all smiles pun berkata,

"i'm very impressed by your half-written essays yesterday. and today, i would like all of you to finish what you started. i'll give you back your essays so you can continue writing them. pass it to me at the end of the class."

everybody was like,

WHAAA-?

"that essay is supposed to be half-written! i have no idea what the ending is gonna be."

and they cursed Mrs Chandran. i remember, my half-written essay was about a weirdo who was an albino. gosh. i don't think i managed to finish the essay. because, you cannot tell a story about an albino in just 6 paragraphs, right?

2. Puan Radziah.

Pn Radziah ni, cikgu Bio. dia pernah ajar aku ke? aku pun tak ingat dah. tapi kan, dia ni, masa perhimpunan belum start, biasalah kan budak-budak perempuan ni mulut potpetpotpet kan. dia pun akan pergi kat mic, and cakap pasal cerebrum dan cerebellum seseorang tu. ok kata pokoknya nak cakap otak kitorang ni da tak betul la. taknak diam. tak nak menerima arahan. oh time tu aku tak tahu menahu apa bendanya cerebrum dan cerebellum tu.

ni cerita dia kenakan kawan aku, Debe. Debe cerita, masa Pn Radziah tgh ajar kelas dia, sangat lah mengantuk kelas tu. so Debe ni pun makan la chewing gum. tiba-tiba, dia perasan, Pn Radziah gelak sorang-sorang. dia pun pelik lah kan. apahal la cikgu ni gelak-gelak. tiba-tiba, Pn Radziah pun menuding (wah) jari ke arah Debe, dan berkata,

"Macam lembu."

hahahahaahahahahahahahah

3. tidur di koridor

oh masa aku Form 2, kitorang ni memang la jahat. aku pun jahat la sikit-sikit. apa nak buat. pengaruh rakan sebaya kan. kami ni sangat la kurang hajar dengan senior. entah lah aku pun tak tau kenapa kitorang tak takut dengan senior pun time tu. maybe sebab buat jahat ramai-ramai kot. bila kena buli / marah pun kena ramai-ramai kan. disebabkan kitorang ni selalu sangat buat 'port' kat dorm aku, senior pun marah la kan. juniors mana boleh kumpul-kumpul buat port borak-borak kemain lagi. dekat dorm yg ada senior pulak tu. jadinya, tiba-tiba, kami telah di 'banned' di 2nd floor dan floor-floor yg lain. 

oh. macam mana nak borak-borak? 

kami ni bijak sebenarnya. kami pun lepak kat tangga. tangga kan dari 2nd floor nak naik 3rd floor kan ada 2 flights of stairs. so in between that la kami lepak. itu ialah floor yang ke 2.5. haaa bijak tak? haha. ok apa cerita tidur kat koridor?

aku pun tak ingat. tapi kitorg kena tidur kat koridor malam-malam. boleh ada 1 bantal saja. oh sejuk gilak. sampai la satu hari, kitorg dah tak tahan asyik kena tidur kat koridor je kan. Madi pun ambil sebaldi air, dan tumpahkan kat sepanjang koridor malam before tidur tu. lepas tu dia campak baldi tu kat bawah. lepas tu, kami pun dengan muka innocent, pergi la jumpa senior.

"em. kak nina, tadi kan hujan kan. koridor basah la. nak kena tidur koridor lagi ke malam ni?

"oh basah ke. hm tak payah la."

aku rasa tak hujan pun haritu. rezeki kitorang lah tu.

4. budak hingus

adala sorang junior ni. dia form 3, kitorang form 4 kot. orang panggil dia Mamak. sebab mmg muka mamak. dia ni sangat la gedik + kurang hajar jugak lah. ok macam ni tau. memang takde sapa suka senior. mmg orang selalu kutuk senior. kutuk lah. tapi jangan kantoi. haa itu diaa. budak Mamak ni, kantoi la pulak. entah apa dia cakap, tapi something pasal, dia tak takut lah kalau kena marah dengan kitorang ni. kuat-kuat pulak tu cakapnye. so kitorang ni konon nak mempertahankan maruah la kan, panggil la budak ni kat dorm Raja.

kitorang tu ialah diorang. aku tak tahu apa pun. orang cakap-cakap je dorang panggil Mamak kat dorm Raja, so aku pun sebok-sebok lah nak tengok. oh aku masuk je, entah apa la diorang dah buat kat mamak tu. meleleh-leleh air mata dia. hahahahah. kitorang tak pukul-pukul tau. kitorang bukan budak lelaki. bila aku masuk je, Raja pun cakap,

"ko nampak Farah ni? dia ni kapten basket tau. tangan dia kuat tau. dia pukul ko sekali entah apa jadi kat kau."

er. serious, tangan aku tak kuat pun. so aku pandang je la budak ni. haha. alah kalau tangan aku kuat pun aku nak pukul ke?

lepas tu kaaaan, diorang ni sangat jahat tau. diorang ambil heater, ada air dalam tu, konon nak tuang atas kepala budak tu. budak tu dah nangis-nangis keluar hingus merayu-rayu,

"kak, jangan la kak, jangan la. isk isk."

keluar hingus. and yet air dalam tu tak panas pun!! haha. bila hingus dia keluar, diorang panggil lagi ramai orang datang tengok hingus dia.

ok lah ok lah. tiba-tiba tak da mood nak sambung kenangan-kenangan manis di sekolah. nak kenangan tak manis pulak.

biasalah kan, masa sekolah dulu gaduh-gaduh. sikit-sikit,

"putus kawan!"

tapi, bila dah meningkat dewasa di alam sekolah, yakni dah naik form 5, kenalah bertahan sikit. sebab kita kan selalu kena berurusan dengan ramai orang, walaupun orang tu kita tak suka, and orang tu pun tak suka kita. haa. so, kutuk belakang-belakang je lah kan.

tapi bila dah meningkat dewasa selepas sekolah ni, yakni alam universiti, kita pun fikirlah, maybe tu zaman dulu-dulu je kot. sekarang ni dah besar. apa la putus kawan. so not cool.

so, bila tiba-tiba jumpa balik, ingatkan ok lah kan. rupa-rupanya tak ok lagii. bukan lah tak ok sampai jerit-jerit tarik-tarik rambut kan. tapi macam tak ok lah. hmmmmm. do i have a grudge, or does she? either way, it's not cool. whatev. i'm not the kind of person that will say,

"hey, let's just settle this thing between us."

especially if that somebody is not worth settling with, about anything. (oh ayat tunggang-langgang). wah nampaknya aku semakin ego ya. ok at least aku admit.

tak lah. dia macam ni. aku macam, just malas nak layan, faham tak? bukannya aku sombong sangat taknak baik dengan budak ni. 1st, aku memang tau dia takkan datang mintak maaf kat aku (wait, kenapa dia nak mintak maaf kat aku?), so, aku pun takkan lah mintak maaf kat dia. ni bukan pasal buat salah kat sapa-sapa. ni just tak puas hati over certain things je ni (aku tau lah.) haa. so, as long as aku tak payah la hidup dekat-dekat dgn dia, apa masalahnya? kan? so. you with your grudge, me with my life. ahaks.