i'm bored yaw

Alhamdulillah, i passed my exam. i love to be home for 2 months. but it's only been a week, and i'm bored. shoot me. i didn't mean to take things for granted, because i know some of my friends would say,

"at least u got the whole 2 months at home, doing whatever u wanna do. we here need to reseat for the exam."

yes. yes i know! but i'm still bored.

i could learn how to cook. i could learn a new language. i could learn to play simple songs with the keyboard. i could do many things! 

so what's the problem? 

i'm not doing those things.

then start doing it!

i don't know why i don't start.

why?

i just said i don't know.

is it because you don't WANT to?

i don't know.

is it because you CANNOT?

i don't know! shut up. was that inner me, questioning my thoughts? scary. and was that me, talking back? scarier.


all i do everyday is:

morning: watch NBA.

noon: eat lunch.

afternoon: nap. looooong nap until i have frontal headache upon waking up.

evening: TV and 9gag.

night: TV and some books i can only last for 15mins reading then sleep.

you know how useless i feel? yes. i know. how. useless. i. feel.


what a boring post. i'll be ashamed if i read it again.