sepetang bersama kasut adidas

hari ini merupakan salah satu hari paling bersejarah dalam hidup aku. aku telah pergi jogging dengan memakai kasut adidas pink baru aku!

aku sangat gembira! kurasakan bagaikan berlari di atas awan-awan kecil. ok takpe. tak payah nak awan sangat. ini semua placebo effect, you know? you got new shoes, you think you're fabulous. you feel like your feet are super light, you can run as fast as the road runner. you start comparing your shoes with other people's 'meh' shoes. hahahahahaha. what, i'm a douche? ok i'll take that.

disebabkan oleh placebo effect tersebut, aku rase macam aku ni atlet negara gitu. beriye bawak jam konon nak timing. start2 pun dah laju. bila dah laju, mestila cepat penat, kan? tapi tak. sepatutnya, di kawasan tasik tersebut lah bermulanya perasaan penat aku datang melanda. tapi disebabkan i got a fabulous shoes and everybody was watching, so i don't feel that tired. i ran and ran and ran. 

peh semat gile kasut aku.

ok sebenarnya aku sangatlah penat. tapi kalau aku start jalan, aku dah tak boleh lari balik dah. that's impossible! so disebabkan aku ni atlet negara kononnya, aku pun tabahkan hati maintain my pace. slow kan sikiiiit je. oleh sebab tak nak fikirkan pasal penat, aku mestilah cari benda lain nak fikir. what else to think about? other than the other people at the lake itself?

ok so aku lari la belakang couple ni. lelakinya aku tak nampak sangat, sebab tumpuan aku betul2 lah dekat perempuan tu. dia pakai all pink! dengan bawak plastik bag kaler pink lagi.

time tu aku terfikir, "hai, nak pinjam kasut i tak? cukupkan pakej."

lepas tu, lari2, aku nampak banyak pulak photoshoot orang pakai baju kawin. ingatkan satu couple model je. tapi ade la 3-4 couple buat photoshoot. lain-lain tempat. aku terfikir, ni semua dalam same company ke? eh kalau aku lari belakang diorang kang free2 aku dan kasut baru aku masuk majalah Wanita ke, Keluarga ke. hewhewhew.

lepas tu aku dah habis lari. stop la depan satu couple tengah photoshoot ni. perempuannye aku tak nampak sangat. sibuk sangat dengan bunga2, tudung nak berjuntai2 kat tepi. aku nampak la lelaki tu. "eh. tak hensem pun? ok maybe tu bukan model. maybe tu orang yang betul2 nak kawin! tu sebab dia tak hensem." hewhewhew jahatnye aku.

then, ternampak pulak ade orang jogging. pakai baju ape tau? baju ni.

serta-merta, hatiku memberontak: "omg, eww. takde bende lain ke kau nak love."

lepas tu, time aku nak cooling down lah kononnye, aku ternampak la satu keluarga ni. tak lah keluarga sangat, sebab ada bapak dan anak-anak kecilnya sahaja. anak ada 2. sorang perempuan sorang lelaki. diorang jalan-jalan. tiba-tiba, si anak lelaki jatuh terjelepuk. face first. aku terkejut. tapi tak lah terkejut sangat. bapaknya kata, "alahai asyik jatuh je la."

bahahahahahahah. ade ke patut. bukan nak tolong anak die. tapi die tengok anak die dulu, baru dia pergi dekat, tolong budak tu bangun. jauh di dalam hati aku, aku nak tengok budak tu menangis. tapi tak. budak tu tak menangis pun. lepas tu aku pun memerhatikan keluarga tersebut.

sorang pun takde rupe bapaknye. kenapa ye? mungkin kah

yes. that makes a lot of sense.

lepas tu aku pun jalan la balik kolej. dalam perjalanan, aku ternampak la ada satu banner ni. 

SELAMAT DATANG KEPADA PELAJAR PERUBATAN TAHUN 3 KE HUKM. IKHLAS DARIPADA SIAPA-SIAPA.

time tu aku pun terfikir, "alah kalau kau betul-betul ikhlas,.."

tiba-tiba aku terstop dari berfikir. kenapa aku sangat negatif ni? since lari kat tasik lagi. semua benda negatif ada dalam otak aku. semua benda aku nak komen negatif. kasut dah positif dah. kenapa benda lain jadi negatif ni? so aku pun nak stop berfikir. dan dalam hati, aku meminta maaf kepada semua orang yang aku dah kutuk dalam hati. ish2.

lari se round je. kutuk berbakul2.

movies yang berjaya membuat i menangis / hampir menangis

(bukan mengikut urutan)

1. Cast Away (2000)

baru tengok tadi. pasal a guy who is stranded in an island after his plane crashed. stranded for 4 years. the only motivation to live is his fiance. of course, ada orang selamatkan dia. then balik rumah tengok fiance dah kawin lain. siap ada anak lagi. huu. bergenang je.

2. The Last Castle

best movie ever. pasal a general taking over a prison. best2. last-last general tu mati. mati bergaya tuu. bergenang je.

3. Red Dog (2011)

actually, tak sempat menangis tengok cite ni. mama kacau. but kalau tengok sorang-sorang tanpa gangguan probability untuk menangis akan tinggi. pasal a chocolate dog (kaler nak dekat-dekat merah, hence, red dog) yang sangat loyal kat tuan dia even tuan dah mati.

4. Remember The Titans (2000)

sports movie. american football. pasal racism. part kawan dia lumpuh pulakk dah. macammane nak main football kalau lumpuh? ish ish sedih tau. bergenang je.

5. The Blind Side (2009)

pasal sorang fat black boy yang lebih kurang homeless. ada satu white family ambik dia jadi anak angkat. bila tanya, mana dia nak pergi malam-malam buta ni? dia cakap nak pegi gym. tanya kenapa? dia jawab "coz it's warm there." pergh sebak hati mak dengar. bergenang je.

6. The Wrestler (2008)

pasal a wrestler yang underwent bypass heart surgery so dia dah tak bole wrestling lagi. so dia da xbleh wrestle, dia cari daughter dia yang benci kat dia. lepas tu dia ada suka kat sorang stripper ni tapi stripper ni cakap tak boleh sebab dia customer so tak boleh rapat-rapat sangat. sebab tak boleh wrestle, dia keja kat supermarket. kat supermarket ada pulak orang perasan yang dia ni wrestler terkenal. tetiba dia bengang ah kan wrestler terkenal keja kat supermarket plak timbang-timbang ikan. so dia pun pegi wrestle balik, even jantung dia da angina dah sikit2. tak sempat nangis. pk pk balik baru bergenang.

7. Warrior (2011)

pasal 2 brothers yang berjumpa dalam satu fight. err. kick fighting ke ape ke i pun tak tau tapi fight dia best wooh. tekejut i. ada jugak fight macam tu. oh oh kenapa nangis ye. sebab 2 brothers ni berasal dari family yg pecah belah terburai. diorang tak suka bapak diorang sbb bapak diorang ni dulu alcoholic. tp sekarang bapak dia dah tak mabuk daah. tapi diorang still tak suka. sian pulak kat bapak dia. bergenang je. plus dia ada tom hardy (yg tatu2 tu) yang gila hot tak ingat dunia.

8. The Pursuit of Happyness

masa will smith nangis tutup pintu toilet guna kaki sebab ada orang ketuk-ketuk pintu nak masuk toilet tapi will smith nak jaga anak dia yang tengah tido dalam toilet tu. sebab diorang takda rumah. ni wa tangkap leleh luu.

9. Invictus 

masa bila pulak aku nangis tengok cite ni.

10. Marley & Me (2008)

oh oh masa doctor kena put the dog to sleep. oh sedihnyee. ni wa tangkap leleh luu.

11. One Day (2011)

sebenarnya masa tengok cite ni tak sempat nangis. tapi lepas pk pk balik, sedih sebenarnye cite ni. pasal cinta tak kesampaian. sampai sebenarnya cinta dia. tapi lambat. then pmpuan ni mati. spoiler hahah. 

12. Hachiko: A Dog's Story (2009)

lebih kurang sama macam Red Dog. pasal anjing-anjing yang comel mahupun tak comel ni i sensitif betul la. ni wa tangkap leleh luu.

banyak lagi sebenarnya yang bergenang-genang tu. tapi i dah tak hengat lah kan.

new year's resolutions

i can't even remember my last year's resolutions. was there any? nevermind.

1. i will say "i don't know", if i don't know something. no "i'm not sure.", no "i think, ...", no "i heard from somebody, ...". i don't want to be a bad informant. a bad informant is someone who gives WRONG information. someone who doesn't know anything is NOT an informant, period.

2. i will only say "i'm not sure." if i really am not sure. not that i do not know about it, it's just that i'm not sure about it. but i'll stick to number one more often.

3. i will take care of my blackberry like i took care of my sony ericsson. not that i will let my bb fall from the 4th floor. because my bb is too fragile for that. my goal: AT LEAST 5 years. so that will be brought on to the next coming years' resolutions.

4. i want to be less emotional. less face expressions? em. less talking. as more talk will only bring harm.

ok let's do those 4 now. too many also not good riiight.

the best companion to lepak

nak dengar tak cerita lepak? cerita i lepak-lepak kat shopping complex, mahkota parade specifically. huh? budak perempuan lepak-lepak? oops sorry i bukan budak lagi. huh? perempuan lepak-lepak? eh mana ada pelik perempuan lepak-lepak. dah biasa dah tu semua. dunia zaman sekarang ni bla bla bla malas i nak bebel pasal dunia zaman sekarang.

tapi kan, i lepak-lepak dengan papa i. huh? a 22-year-old girl lady (i'm a ladyyyy) lepak-lepak with her father at a shopping complex? that's so weird. eh tak weird ke? memang tak pun. bagi i memang tak weird. sebab masa i bising-bising nak bawak kereta papa i jalan-jalan melaka, and my dad tak bagi, my dad kata,

"Bagi papa, semua anak papa masih kecik lagi." 

thanks, dad. so anyway, masa kat mahkota parade tu, actually my sister and brother-in-law were bringing my other relatives to go jalan-jalan satu melaka. kereta tak cukup, kena la bring my dad's car also. and kebetulan i ada hal la pulak dengan my blackberry so i pun ikut la sebab i beli blackberry dekat mahkota jugak. so while they jalan-jalan kat luar kota melaka pergi a famosa naik beca tangkap gambar bagai, i dengan my dad pun duduk la kat mahkota tu. because we don't like heat. malaysia is so hot i cannot stand it (budget mat salleh).

my dad got his own agenda : to get his helicopter fixed. yeah a 56-year-old man still plays a remote-controlled helicopter. his excuse : 

"i didn't have the opportunity when i was a kid." 

ok sounds reasonable, dad. you have my blessings. so anyway, when i was done, we met in the food court, and we had our lunch. then we went to the WONDERLAND to play basketball. well, i played, he recorded me playing. and he recorded some nerd guy dancing. ala yang menari tekan-tekan gune kaki tu. wuyoh beriye wei die menari. segan i tengok huhu.

then we jalan-jalan some more. and my dad got tired and wanted to sit down. we duduk dekat satu kedai makan tu. meja makan tu tak bersih lagi ada banyak used pinggan and stuff. then i said,

"if we want to sit here we have to order."

"that's ok just wait until they come to take our order, then we leave before they take it."

then duduk-duduk, borak-borak, orang kedai tu tak datang pun bawak menu ke ape ke. meja pun tak bersihkan. tetibe nak marah pulak service macam taik kan (sedangkan taknak pun makan situ). then, i thought,

"papa that's ok la. ni konon pinggan-pinggan ni kita la yang punya ni. kita baru habis makan la konon ni."

"haaa betul-betul. cepat pegang perut konon kenyang. wahh sedap gila."

"ok tak payah act sangat nanti obvious pulak tipu kan."

then we duduk lama-lama and borak-borak la. i belek-belek my bb, my dad belek-belek hp murah dia. then, i terperasan,

"eh papa, kedai ni self-service laa. take the menus ourselves."

"good, then they will never come. boleh duduk lama-lama lagi hahahah."

then duduk-duduk. baru perasan tu kedai cina sebenarnya. tengok-tengok la dekat sign situ, ada drinks je. food maybe ada la tapi kena pergi tengok menu dia yang kena self-service tu, so i malas la nak ambik. sebab i nak tengok ada logo halal tak. so i cakap la,

"papa ni kedai makan cina la."

"oh. ada babi tak?"

"entah la."

then terdiam. then i cakap,

"asal cina je ada babi. that's stereotyping! not good."

then we duduk lagi lama-lama until bontot sakit lah kan tu kerusi rotan. then bangun pergi la kedai jepun. papa i cakap, tu kedai RM5. tapi bila i masuk, takda pun tanda harga. takkan la periuk besar-besar tu RM5. so i tak percaya lah papa i. then ternampak la satu kalendar 2012 gambar kucing. comel gileeeee. every month ada kucing-kucing different breeds punya. tapi takda tanda harga. then i tanya papa,

"kalau harga kalendar ni RM5 nak beli tak?"

"Nak!"

then bawak la kalendar tu pergi kaunter. oh ramai pula beratur di kaunter. tak jadi beli lah jom keluar dari kedai durjana takda tanda harga ini.

then we jalan lagi. tunggu my relatives habis jalan, diorang nak pergi food court mahkota sebab diorang belum lunch lagi. my dad and i booked some tables in the food court. that time was like, 4pm. if i were them, i would go on a hunger strike. how could they stand not having lunch until 4pm?

sampai situ saja lah perjalanan kami. no lah. lepas tu perjalanan kami ialah balik rumah la kan. pfft.

bb BB bb BB bb

i ada blackberry baru. bb bold. best lah kan. eksyen huh. tapi pakainye tak reti. dah letak profile silent, berbunyik lagi lah hp i ni. sakit ati i tau. godek-godek lame sikit dah habis battery. tapi ada kawan i cakap, takpe, memang smartphone semua battery cepat habis (fuhh lega i dgr). ada orang tanya, berapa beli bb bold ni? i jawab RM1.5k. dia kata, then kenapa tak beli iPhone? (damnn tak lega i dgr.) cis kalau la i tau harga iPhone pun RM1.5k.. ish ish. dah beli tu dah la. bersyukur ok. (sedangkan bukan i pun yg beli uhu mekasih la incik zfrn). 

bila beli je bb bold baru ni, ada je lah benda tak enak i dengar. cuba la kamu-kamu semua ni sokong je ape yg i ada ni? sila laaahh sokong bb bold i ni! penat tau i godek-godek dok tahu menate gapo dio kato nak on wifi pong dok gheti.

now pasal BBM. ye la i tau la kalau sape-sape ada bb boleh la BBM kan, free kan. tapinye, kenapa sibuk nak BBM ngn i kalau you tak rapat pun dgn i? nak msg2 free gitu. kalau ye pun msg free, nak msg apenye? beriye beno lah nak BBpin i. kalau you ni mmg besfren i ke, boyfren i ke, girlfren i ke, gay fren i ke, fren-fren i yg i slalu kena chain msg or nak ajak makan kafe ke, boleh la. ni tak. tak pernah-pernah nye. kalau i cakap i tak nak BBM dgn you mcmmane? haaa. tersentap hati mak, padan muka you.

ps: pakai shampoo anti hair fall, lagi banyak rambut i gugur ada la. tapi takpe. bau dia sedap. pakai lah shampoo head and shoulder anti hair fall for women. nanti boleh la rambut kita sama-sama wangi sweet nyeww.

what's so special about MORNINGS?

i am a morning person. especially on weekends. because, a lot of people will take the chance to claim their sleeping hours on weekends right? then on weekend mornings, everything will be so quiet, and peaceful. not a lot of people around. when i go to the cafe to have breakfast, it's the best moment of my weekend time. i feel like,

"semua nasi lemak kat sini diorang serve untuk aku! aku sorang!"

but of course i don't eat all the nasi lemak. 

i feel so special. let me tell you why i feel so special.

my father once brought me to a store somewhere i couldn't remember. we went there early, when the store had just opened. the owner was chinese. we were the first customers. the owner treated us so nicely. and we left. then my father said to me:

"for chinese people, their first customers are always treated nicely because they are thought to bawa ONG. so when you bargain or whatever, diorang tak kisah. bagi punya. bila 1st customer happy, the day will bawa ONG."

so i applied this to ALL shops, regardless the owners' race. but for my own sake la. tak kisah la diorang dapat untung ke tak. if dapat, bagus la.

another thing. the morning's air could never disappoint you. it's always cold. like, ALWAYS. tak kisah la time tu musim panas ke, musim kemarau ke. kalau pagi-pagi, mesti sejuk. even for a short time. like today, until 9.30am still sejuk. lucky me. mornings are also mysterious. they can be very cloudy, you expect it's going to rain for the rest of the day. but sometimes (most of the time) it's going to be sunny. how deceiving.

i like mornings. when the sun hasn't rised yet. but bright enough to see everything. when everything's a little bit foggy. birds chirping (not too excessively). when i feel i haven't wasted a lot of hours of the day (even if i'm not doing anything during the fine morning). when all the houses are quiet because everybody is still sleeping. when everybody hasn't showered yet, but i have, and i feel so fresh and smell so nice compared to everybody (ahaks). so because everybody is still sleeping, they won't be bothering me. my morning is mine. nobody is going to ruin it. and i'm loving it.

:)

beautiful women

wanna know something about women? the so-called once-a-month THING. what is it? huhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhu

zhafran,

the once-a-month THING is called TANTRUMS. wait. that's weekly thing.

zhafran,

the once-a-month THING is called, well, tak nak lah cerita kat sini. entah apa-apa. malu la you, i'm a lady you. fine young lady aww.

women are RELATIONAL creatures. translate : RELATIONSHIP IS A VERY IMPORTANT THING IN WOMEN. doesn't matter if it's involving boyfriend-girlfriend relationship, or friends, or family members. any relationship. this is a very big deal to them. even if they don't admit it. (but hey, if I say no, then no. don't bother to ask any further. lying is not my thaang.)

women are GOOD listener. you can tell all your problems, and women will listen to them attentively. but if she's sleepy, then don't tell la. she'll fall asleep. gracefully like sleeping beauty, because women are so beautiful :'>

i'm all ears.

women are BAD problem solvers. they listen because they love to listen to emotions being expressed. they're EMOTIONAL. but we can stop at that. emotions all day long is very feminine, you know. no need to solve the problem. you solve it, no more emotions coming out. we focus on the emotions. ok. focus.

women LOVE compliments. even though it's very small, "you don't even realize you're complimenting her" kind of way. example : "oh my fingernails are dirty compared to yours." ahaks.

clean fingernails are sexy meoww

women LOVE when you notice very small things about them. example : when she's eating mihun, and very carefully isolating the taugeh and undercooked sawi to the edge of the plate, and he says "oh you don't eat veggies?" ( :'> can't believe you noticed)

women LIKE to feel insecure about their bodies. they're not fat, but they think they're fat. i am not fat, but i have some fatty tissues in places where i don't want them to be. that's insecurity. i feel thin only in the mornings, when i haven't had my breakfast yet. golden moment  in front of the mirror. shitty moment after lunch in front of the mirror.

after lunch.

that's women. and all women are different. (according to all women)

cakap-cakap

setiap perkara yg kita cakap itu merupakan doa.

pernah dengar saying ni? mestilah pernah. ini supaya kita fikir dulu sebelum cakap. tapi ada aku fikir dulu sebelum cakap? mestilah ada. tapi kadang-kadang takda jugak. kan?

bila marah, semua main cakap je. mencarut-carut pulak tu. menjadi-jadi pulak tu baru-baru ni. sikit-sikit, fuck sana, fuck sini. entah apa-apa. apa ingat cool sangat ke cakap fuck tu? tak cool lah. kita perempuan. kena jaga tatasusila, adab sopan. tak kira la perempuan ke lelaki ke, kena jaga jugak kan? kita Muslim. kena jaga akhlak. tapi aku rasa most religions pun suruh penganut dia jaga akhlak kan? so semua orang kena jaga akhlak. untuk orang yg takda agama, tak pernah pulak aku dengar ada orang cakap,

oh dia Atheist. padan la kurang ajar.

tak tahu lah. aku hidup pun tak berapa lama sangat. baru 22 tahun. mungkin aku tak cukup pengalaman lagi nak dengar macam-macam benda kat dunia ni.

ada sekali dlm entry aku ni ada aku marah-marah sorang mamat ni, sampai aku cakap,

can't you at least wait for me to inhale, exhale, and die before you ask me that question?

ish2. mintak mati ke aku ni? amalan dah cukup ke nak bawak masuk kubur? taubat pun belum. ada hati nak mati awal. ish2. tak patut.

aku selalu dengar orang cakap, masa bulan puasa,

hey jgn mengumpat la bulan-bulan puasa ni.

hey bukan mengumpat tu selama-lamanya haram ke, tak kisah la bulan apa-apa pun? ok lah maybe dia nak cakap, nanti kurang pahala puasa kalau mengumpat kot. tu aku tak tau la. whether memang ada hadis kata kurang pahala puasa kalau buat sekian-sekian, or tu benda ghaib, kita tak tau and tu semua urusan Allah. nanti kita check sama-sama ye. so aku rasa paling ok kalau just cakap,

hey jangan mengumpat lah.

ada sekali dalam bilik aku kat hostel ni, masa tu petang-petang. aku tengah tengok laptop. tiba-tiba ada angin tiup. tingkap aku memang selalu buka. dengan langsir sekali. baru aku perasan luar tingkap aku ni ada banyak pokok. ok memang la aku sedar ada banyak pokok, tapi baru aku perasan betapa cantiknya pokok-pokok tu kena tiup angin. aku duduk tingkat 4, so yg aku nampak semua top of the trees la. lepas tu aku tengok, lepas satu pokok, satu -satu lagi kena tiup angin. macam kena tiup angin la, faham tak? duhh. benda ni biasa je. tapi aku nak cakap jugak. sebab time tu aku rasa sangat tenang. and baru aku sedar itu lah 1st time dalam masa 2 tahun aku duduk bilik ni, yg aku betul-betul pergi kat tingkap aku tu semata-mata nak tengok pokok yg ditiup angin. and bunga dia colour merah, dan sangat pelik rupanya.

dulu aku tak suka pokok. sebab bila cakap pasal pokok, aku teringat masa form 4 ke form 5 ke, kena belajar pasal fotosintesis. aku tak suka belajar tu. so aku pun tak suka pokok. suka-suka hati aku je nak suka ke tak nak kan. pokok tu kan ciptaan Tuhan. kita kena sayang semua makhluk Tuhan.

sorry to all

my super-bad, over-the-top wtf mood was raging these past few days / weeks. and i know somebody was hurt. well, maybe more than one person was hurt, maybe. here, i would like to apologize to:

1. Zhafran

you've been such a great companion, and very patient. i don't know how did you put up with me, but if i were you, i'd be leaving me, after all the ridiculous tantrums i exploded lately. i apologize for all that. i should be more mature in controlling my emotions. i'm so selfish, i know. so, thanks for your patience and kindness, and have a nice day. ps i love you no matter what happens. you're still my best friend.

2. my group members

i know you guys don't read my blog (no one does), but i would like to say that i'm sorry, for i've been such a terrible group leader (at least that was what most of you guys think i was). in trying to hide my feeling annoyed, i might not have succeeded in doing so, so it still showed (my annoyed face), so i'll try to work on that, so next time, people will think of me more as a friendly person, and easy to get to (whatever that means, at least people won't think of me as a lion or a crazy woman or something.)

3. 

i think that's all la. unbelievable. but hey i'm not saying sorry just because exam is just around the corner. i'm saying sorry because i mean it. do you believe it?

S.P.A.R.T.A.C.U.S

i suka la tengok Spartacus: Blood and Sand. hot, hunky half-naked men fighting with swords. what girl and gay man wouldn't like that stuff? Spartacus: Gods of the Arena pun best jugak.

nom nom nom nom nom nom nom

nom nom nom tu apa ye. aku selalu tengok orang kalau nak makan ke apa ke cakap nom nom nom. whatever lah. nanti-nanti i google apa bendanya nom nom tu. di atas, ialah gambar Andy Whitfield, yakni Spartacus dalam Spartacus: Blood and Sand season 1. season 2 belum keluar lagi, bersabar-sabar ye. weeiii,

hot tak mamat  ni? mestilah hot ok.

dalam episode 1 and 2 rambut dia panjang. tapi i cari-cari gambar dia, yg ada gambar rambut panjang tu, mesti dgn bini dia dalam Spartacus tu. benci lah i. so i tak letak la gambar rambut panjang tu kat sini. ala tak hensem pun rambut panjang. i tak suka la lelaki rambut panjang. rimas.

tapi, andy whitfield ni dah mati. i mean, really dead, in real life. he battled non-Hodgkin's lymphoma. died at age 39. so season 2 would be featuring a new Spartacus. although i can't imagine what Spartacus would be like without andy whitfield. sob sob.

grr

dangg. gambar ni tak boleh tak letak lah. 'get the body of a Roman gladiator'. nice line. i suka gambar ni sebab, dalam Spartacus tu, sangaaaaaat lah sikit budak ni nak senyum tau tak. serious aje. so ni ada senyum sikit i suka la. more like a smirk. eh i tengok senyuman dia je tau. you tengok apa? ayookk.

ok lah i sedih la tengok Andy Whitfield lama-lama. walaupun i baruuuu je minat dia lepas tu baru dia mati. mari tengok Spartacus: Gods of the Arena. ini ialah prequel untuk cerita Blood and Sand season 1. disebabkan Andy Whitfield was diagnosed with cancer, he deferred (ye ke?) from continuing to act in season 2, because he needed to undergo treatment. so, because of too long of waiting, they did Gods of the Arena. only have 6 episodes. again, i couldn't imagine any hero but andy. in Gods of the Arena, the hero is Gannicus, played by Dustin Clare.

aww

well guess what? he IS cute! wait, wait. eat this:

i'll eat. nom nom nom

he is SUPER CUTE! even cuter in real life. in Gods of the Arena, this fella SMILES a lot. and damn, really, he's freaking charming, i tell you. but he's tiny. he's 5 ft 8" (173cm). Andy was 5 ft 10" (178cm). that's why in Blood and Sand, some new gladiator is shocked when he sees Spartacus, and says, 

"That small man is the champion of Capua?"

i was like, whaaa? he's not small, you idiot. he's BIG. but no. he's small. i wonder why they don't say anything about Gannicus' height in Gods of the Arena?

tapi kan tapi kan. Dustin Clare ni, 10 years younger than Andy Whitfield. tapi muka nampak macam sama umur je kan? mana satu, did Andy look younger, or does Dustin look older?

sekolah

holiday dah habis. aku pun dah habis. eh. tak. aku ada lagi. meruntun di hukm ini. 

meruntun tu apa? aku main letak je.

mari cerita pasal kenang-kenangan di sekolah dahulu yuhuu

1. Mrs Chandran

Mrs Chandran ialah cikgu English aku masa form 5. aku set 1. dia mcm ni tau. bila tiba part English, budak-budak yg nakal-nakal gitu yg akan masuk set 1 (ok aku tak nakal. aku skema.). contohnya, er, takpe lah takyah bagi contoh. so budak-budak ni English power oo (ok English aku tak power, so aku still tak tau kenapa aku masuk set 1). berbalik kepada Mrs Chandran. dia suka cakap perkataan

FANTABULOUS!

katanya, why don't you try to pick 2 words, with the almost same meaning, and mix them together.

FANTASTIC + FABULOUS = FANTABULOUS!

ok takpe lah tu. kami tak pernah pun mix-mix words tu. ada lah sekali tu. dia suruh kitorang buat essay (as usual). tapi, kali ini, berbeza ye. dia cakap, (dalam bahasa Inggeris), 

"cuba korang buat satu essay, tapi jgn habiskan essay tu. buat separuh jalan je."

tiba-tiba, kelas yg selalu membosankan itu menjadi menarik. semua orang tertunduk-tunduk, terjelir-jelir lidah (bukan aku) menulis essay yg separuh itu. sebab, tak payah habiskan sampai 6 paragraphs la kan. buat 3 paragraphs je. separuh kan. wohoo. best-best. masing-masing pun tanya-tanya la pasal masing-masing punya essay kan. best-best.

keesokan harinya, Mrs Chandran with all smiles pun berkata,

"i'm very impressed by your half-written essays yesterday. and today, i would like all of you to finish what you started. i'll give you back your essays so you can continue writing them. pass it to me at the end of the class."

everybody was like,

WHAAA-?

"that essay is supposed to be half-written! i have no idea what the ending is gonna be."

and they cursed Mrs Chandran. i remember, my half-written essay was about a weirdo who was an albino. gosh. i don't think i managed to finish the essay. because, you cannot tell a story about an albino in just 6 paragraphs, right?

2. Puan Radziah.

Pn Radziah ni, cikgu Bio. dia pernah ajar aku ke? aku pun tak ingat dah. tapi kan, dia ni, masa perhimpunan belum start, biasalah kan budak-budak perempuan ni mulut potpetpotpet kan. dia pun akan pergi kat mic, and cakap pasal cerebrum dan cerebellum seseorang tu. ok kata pokoknya nak cakap otak kitorang ni da tak betul la. taknak diam. tak nak menerima arahan. oh time tu aku tak tahu menahu apa bendanya cerebrum dan cerebellum tu.

ni cerita dia kenakan kawan aku, Debe. Debe cerita, masa Pn Radziah tgh ajar kelas dia, sangat lah mengantuk kelas tu. so Debe ni pun makan la chewing gum. tiba-tiba, dia perasan, Pn Radziah gelak sorang-sorang. dia pun pelik lah kan. apahal la cikgu ni gelak-gelak. tiba-tiba, Pn Radziah pun menuding (wah) jari ke arah Debe, dan berkata,

"Macam lembu."

hahahahaahahahahahahahah

3. tidur di koridor

oh masa aku Form 2, kitorang ni memang la jahat. aku pun jahat la sikit-sikit. apa nak buat. pengaruh rakan sebaya kan. kami ni sangat la kurang hajar dengan senior. entah lah aku pun tak tau kenapa kitorang tak takut dengan senior pun time tu. maybe sebab buat jahat ramai-ramai kot. bila kena buli / marah pun kena ramai-ramai kan. disebabkan kitorang ni selalu sangat buat 'port' kat dorm aku, senior pun marah la kan. juniors mana boleh kumpul-kumpul buat port borak-borak kemain lagi. dekat dorm yg ada senior pulak tu. jadinya, tiba-tiba, kami telah di 'banned' di 2nd floor dan floor-floor yg lain. 

oh. macam mana nak borak-borak? 

kami ni bijak sebenarnya. kami pun lepak kat tangga. tangga kan dari 2nd floor nak naik 3rd floor kan ada 2 flights of stairs. so in between that la kami lepak. itu ialah floor yang ke 2.5. haaa bijak tak? haha. ok apa cerita tidur kat koridor?

aku pun tak ingat. tapi kitorg kena tidur kat koridor malam-malam. boleh ada 1 bantal saja. oh sejuk gilak. sampai la satu hari, kitorg dah tak tahan asyik kena tidur kat koridor je kan. Madi pun ambil sebaldi air, dan tumpahkan kat sepanjang koridor malam before tidur tu. lepas tu dia campak baldi tu kat bawah. lepas tu, kami pun dengan muka innocent, pergi la jumpa senior.

"em. kak nina, tadi kan hujan kan. koridor basah la. nak kena tidur koridor lagi ke malam ni?

"oh basah ke. hm tak payah la."

aku rasa tak hujan pun haritu. rezeki kitorang lah tu.

4. budak hingus

adala sorang junior ni. dia form 3, kitorang form 4 kot. orang panggil dia Mamak. sebab mmg muka mamak. dia ni sangat la gedik + kurang hajar jugak lah. ok macam ni tau. memang takde sapa suka senior. mmg orang selalu kutuk senior. kutuk lah. tapi jangan kantoi. haa itu diaa. budak Mamak ni, kantoi la pulak. entah apa dia cakap, tapi something pasal, dia tak takut lah kalau kena marah dengan kitorang ni. kuat-kuat pulak tu cakapnye. so kitorang ni konon nak mempertahankan maruah la kan, panggil la budak ni kat dorm Raja.

kitorang tu ialah diorang. aku tak tahu apa pun. orang cakap-cakap je dorang panggil Mamak kat dorm Raja, so aku pun sebok-sebok lah nak tengok. oh aku masuk je, entah apa la diorang dah buat kat mamak tu. meleleh-leleh air mata dia. hahahahah. kitorang tak pukul-pukul tau. kitorang bukan budak lelaki. bila aku masuk je, Raja pun cakap,

"ko nampak Farah ni? dia ni kapten basket tau. tangan dia kuat tau. dia pukul ko sekali entah apa jadi kat kau."

er. serious, tangan aku tak kuat pun. so aku pandang je la budak ni. haha. alah kalau tangan aku kuat pun aku nak pukul ke?

lepas tu kaaaan, diorang ni sangat jahat tau. diorang ambil heater, ada air dalam tu, konon nak tuang atas kepala budak tu. budak tu dah nangis-nangis keluar hingus merayu-rayu,

"kak, jangan la kak, jangan la. isk isk."

keluar hingus. and yet air dalam tu tak panas pun!! haha. bila hingus dia keluar, diorang panggil lagi ramai orang datang tengok hingus dia.

ok lah ok lah. tiba-tiba tak da mood nak sambung kenangan-kenangan manis di sekolah. nak kenangan tak manis pulak.

biasalah kan, masa sekolah dulu gaduh-gaduh. sikit-sikit,

"putus kawan!"

tapi, bila dah meningkat dewasa di alam sekolah, yakni dah naik form 5, kenalah bertahan sikit. sebab kita kan selalu kena berurusan dengan ramai orang, walaupun orang tu kita tak suka, and orang tu pun tak suka kita. haa. so, kutuk belakang-belakang je lah kan.

tapi bila dah meningkat dewasa selepas sekolah ni, yakni alam universiti, kita pun fikirlah, maybe tu zaman dulu-dulu je kot. sekarang ni dah besar. apa la putus kawan. so not cool.

so, bila tiba-tiba jumpa balik, ingatkan ok lah kan. rupa-rupanya tak ok lagii. bukan lah tak ok sampai jerit-jerit tarik-tarik rambut kan. tapi macam tak ok lah. hmmmmm. do i have a grudge, or does she? either way, it's not cool. whatev. i'm not the kind of person that will say,

"hey, let's just settle this thing between us."

especially if that somebody is not worth settling with, about anything. (oh ayat tunggang-langgang). wah nampaknya aku semakin ego ya. ok at least aku admit.

tak lah. dia macam ni. aku macam, just malas nak layan, faham tak? bukannya aku sombong sangat taknak baik dengan budak ni. 1st, aku memang tau dia takkan datang mintak maaf kat aku (wait, kenapa dia nak mintak maaf kat aku?), so, aku pun takkan lah mintak maaf kat dia. ni bukan pasal buat salah kat sapa-sapa. ni just tak puas hati over certain things je ni (aku tau lah.) haa. so, as long as aku tak payah la hidup dekat-dekat dgn dia, apa masalahnya? kan? so. you with your grudge, me with my life. ahaks.